I'm starting to remember why this is my least favorite time of year. It really has nothing to do with the holidays, although I don't really celebrate the holidays either. The holidays are a reason for everyone to spend money they really don't have to spend, and see people they probably could care less about seeing. I admit it, I'm one of those who would just as soon stay away from my family. At the same time, the cold weather is here. This means that insomnia is kicking in even harder and kicking my ass. It also means that arthritis is kicking in hot and heavy into every bone I've ever broken. It all amounts to less sleep than ever. I've been doing good to be asleep before 7AM for over a week now. It means I've missed out on events that I've wanted to attend, running late for appointments, and hasn't done much for my attitude. If I don't get enough sleep, I become a royal S.O.B. towards everyone, although I do my best not to be. Another issue I'm having right now stems from finding my wedding ring recently. This shouldn't be an issue, but it reminds me of the times I had someone laying beside me that I cared about. I'v been dating someone off and on for almost 3 years, but we've never spent a single night together. We just go out and enjoy spending time together. I'm starting to think I need more from a relationship, but I don't think I'm going to get it any time soon.
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i hear you about the holidays. i miss my family, but i don't miss the drama that comes with it. i also hate seeing people spending so much money they are going to spend the next 9 months paying off, just because of a single holiday.
i want to go to sleep with mike every night. and it seriously kills me that i can't. but i'm pushing through. so i know exactly what you are saying. i hope that you get what you are looking for honey. you deserve so much i don't even think you realize. i hope you get it soon!! mmmmuah