modvayne

I want to say thank you to everyone for all of the birthday messages. They brightened a day that is usually one of my worst. I also have to say that SG night at Havana kicked ass!!! I actually talked to more people than I normally do, which is saying a lot for me. It usually takes me awhile to say much to people I've never met before. The night was made even better since Avidity was able to join us. I can also say that since she has been here, I have seen a new side of PunkNiteMike. I've never seen him this happy, or show this much emotion before. I just wish that Avidity could stay, so he could keep the permanent smile on his face that he has when they are together. We have all hung out several times since she came to visit, and we've done our best to make sure she experiences everything that we can. If she is able to stay another day, we're going to make sure she gets to eat at a local diner that has the best pie ever.

On an unrelated note, my children are driving me nuts. I realize they haven't had it easy since their mother and I seperated and divorced when they were young, but they never seem to hear anything they are told. It doesn't help that they are getting close to being teenagers either. What bothers me most though, is that I've been down the path they are going down, and I know what is going to happen to them. They are constantly lieing and stealing, yet their mother accuses me of not trying to do anything about it. I've actually kept things from her that they've done because I've dealt with them here, and I don't feel it fair for them to be punished twice. I'm getting close to the point of not having them at the house though. I've had one of them try to steal from me, which I'm definitely not going to stand for. Now, the other one has started stealing at school, and has himself in a world of trouble. Add to his stealing, that he tried to bring myself and his grandmother into his situation by lieing, and it puts me at my wits end about what to do. I love my kids dearly, but how can I have them around when I can't trust them? Am I wrong for feeling like I can't have them around? I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to see them end up in juvie, but I feel powerless to stop their behavior.