nope...the cool kids wont let me play with them in NYC...im still not feeling any love from the SGNY group..
i really really need to start flushing out the predictable, habit-driven tendenciies that often prevent me from going beyond my confort zone (literally and figuratiively, and settling in a relatively apathetic state.
so...
i think i need to infuse new people and surround myself with unfamiliar stories, experiences and perspectives that hopefully help inspire me and rediscover the curiosity and intrigue that i know was there once when i was younger.
(and from what i can tell now, it was an essential ingredient in motivating me to whole-heartedly pursue just sbout every new creative.and technical/academic pursuit .
I would dive completely into whatver the challnge, and then remain submerged long enough to be content with my independent exploration.what i needed to experience and accomplish. Eventually, my iintriigue and curiosity would lead me to a renewed desiire for to other new pursuit of the entirety of a different experience.
basically im rambling now...operating on occasional but weak sparks of brain actiivity tthat manages to plow through the murkiness that comes from being awake and forgetting to eat for a few days-- so im hoping i managed to write, semi coherent thoughts. if not- chalk this post up to my mind's needing to decompress, releasing all the unnecessary balled up crap that ive balled up and shoved ellsewhere.
phew...didnt intead for the long entry...but i (and my mind) feel so so much lsss cluttered and choatic...
aahhhh, periodic intellectual mind vomit...sometiimes i guess ts got to happen, and it did, now im done, and i feel much more able to roll with whatver punches.
tres bien
i really really need to start flushing out the predictable, habit-driven tendenciies that often prevent me from going beyond my confort zone (literally and figuratiively, and settling in a relatively apathetic state.
so...
i think i need to infuse new people and surround myself with unfamiliar stories, experiences and perspectives that hopefully help inspire me and rediscover the curiosity and intrigue that i know was there once when i was younger.
(and from what i can tell now, it was an essential ingredient in motivating me to whole-heartedly pursue just sbout every new creative.and technical/academic pursuit .
I would dive completely into whatver the challnge, and then remain submerged long enough to be content with my independent exploration.what i needed to experience and accomplish. Eventually, my iintriigue and curiosity would lead me to a renewed desiire for to other new pursuit of the entirety of a different experience.
basically im rambling now...operating on occasional but weak sparks of brain actiivity tthat manages to plow through the murkiness that comes from being awake and forgetting to eat for a few days-- so im hoping i managed to write, semi coherent thoughts. if not- chalk this post up to my mind's needing to decompress, releasing all the unnecessary balled up crap that ive balled up and shoved ellsewhere.
phew...didnt intead for the long entry...but i (and my mind) feel so so much lsss cluttered and choatic...
aahhhh, periodic intellectual mind vomit...sometiimes i guess ts got to happen, and it did, now im done, and i feel much more able to roll with whatver punches.
tres bien
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I find that when I feel stuck in my comfert zone that a simple going out of it a little bit will generaly send me completly out of it. A few drinks tend to help too.
Good luck, hope you feel better...