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modernpopculture

Syracuse, NY

Member Since 2002

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Monday Nov 11, 2002

Nov 11, 2002
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What is going on in my head? I so want to sleep right now but can't. I was just laying in bed, awake, going crazy in my head. As I sit here writing this I am gong even crazier thinking about it. I have moments were I just am kinda lost in a daze and i dont really know what is going on in my head. Then i come to and its like I didnt have a single thought in my head. I just dont know what is wrong. My life has started to turn upside down over the last week. I just don't know what to do. I lost my job, that sucks. i so want to just go back and finish school and get a job I like to do. I don't mind working, i just want a job were i get respecte ror the work I do.
I want to move, I really do. Not to run away from here but to see what I can find. When I think about it a small fear comes over me from I dont know where in my body. Now, seeing as most of you dont realy know me you wouldnt understand how much that means. i very very rarely feel "fear." I can take the fear and use it to drive me and push myself beyond my limits. But this fear is hard to get past and harder still to use as a motivater.

I am the one that people come to when they need someone.....what happens when i do?
modernpopculture:
I odnt even know if my ramblings made any sense to anyone. If they do, could you explain it to me?
Nov 11, 2002
linz:
yay for cusak!
Nov 13, 2002

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