I'm really in a pickle right now. Here's the issue at hand:
I am bored.
Yes. Totally bored. Mind you, I have moments of fun but seriously, my life is significantly more boring than it once was. I have the life I want at 30 right now. At 23 though... well, I want my rockstar life. I was talking more with A about it and he's just not up for that. Not interested, no way no how. He's happy with things the way they are. It really tears me up that I have to choose between him and me. Sucks... I'm not sure what to do. I can make my own way here, try to find my place. I mean, I could have a license by the end of the month if I really pushed it. Other possibilities are, of course, packing up as much of my shit as I can carry and heading out elsewhere. Possibilities include SF, Pgh, Chi, NYC or back to Burlington. I'm really not sure what the fuck I'm going to do. I just know I have to do something.
Also, I've decided I'm saying fuck you! to gawthic fashion and I'm wearing my boots, a pair of jeans and a black sweater to the club on Saturday. Boring? Yes. Gawthic? No. Do I care? Not really. I don't feel like trying to dig around and find something really quick. I'd end up at Hot Topic and looking stupid and out of my element.
Lastly, it's really friggin' hot in my apartment. I think I'm going to go strip down to my underwear and play DS. Peace.
I am bored.
Yes. Totally bored. Mind you, I have moments of fun but seriously, my life is significantly more boring than it once was. I have the life I want at 30 right now. At 23 though... well, I want my rockstar life. I was talking more with A about it and he's just not up for that. Not interested, no way no how. He's happy with things the way they are. It really tears me up that I have to choose between him and me. Sucks... I'm not sure what to do. I can make my own way here, try to find my place. I mean, I could have a license by the end of the month if I really pushed it. Other possibilities are, of course, packing up as much of my shit as I can carry and heading out elsewhere. Possibilities include SF, Pgh, Chi, NYC or back to Burlington. I'm really not sure what the fuck I'm going to do. I just know I have to do something.
Also, I've decided I'm saying fuck you! to gawthic fashion and I'm wearing my boots, a pair of jeans and a black sweater to the club on Saturday. Boring? Yes. Gawthic? No. Do I care? Not really. I don't feel like trying to dig around and find something really quick. I'd end up at Hot Topic and looking stupid and out of my element.
Lastly, it's really friggin' hot in my apartment. I think I'm going to go strip down to my underwear and play DS. Peace.
If you move to SF, and I move back to SF, that would rule!
You didn't miss out on much last night. I was pretty tired, and all of these crazy goth boys kept hitting on me. The music was good, but I was too tired to dance.
[Edited on May 15, 2005 9:03AM]