mockingbird

oh, sweetie. i've sooo been there. it seemed like everybody but me was having the best time in the world at college, and i just felt all sorts of out of it. hang in there though, the first couple of semesters are always the worst. i ended up really loving college, but i didn't make many friends at all. now that it's been a few years, there are literally maybe two people i keep in touch with from college. sometimes i do regret not "getting out there" more, but i am who i am, y'know? if you're shy, there are things you can do to kinda force yourself to go out, but it's hard to completely change your personality.

for me, it was a combination of shyness, spending most of my time with my boyfriend, and just really hating the whole superficial process of getting to know somebody. i would love to have more wonderful, super-close friends in my life, but it's almost like i want a guarantee that the person i'm getting to know is neat and likes me and will stay my friend for longer than the semester we're in class together or whatever.

i know this was a bit random, but i saw your post in GO, and it just sounded so familiar.