mockingbird

I love my mom so much, and it breaks my heart when she cries.

I've always been "mature" because of the way my family is. I'm the oldest and my younger brother has a lot of learning disabilities. Since grade school, he's been fucked over and it was REALLY hard for him up until 8th grade when my family threatened to sue the school. They tried to label my brother as having asperger's syndrome, which he does not. And this was without even a diagnosis. After my family threatened to sue, they allowed him to go to a school for kids with learning disabilities. Which he has ever since.

I've seen my mom cry since I was really young, and it always gets to me. She's told me family issues and secrets since fifth grade. I'm just someone who had to grow up fast.

Anyway... She called me today and was really upset and crying because apparently my brother is having a hard time in school and my dad won't help out. My mom needs to get surgery on her leg and she's in a lot of pain. My dad not helping means she has to be on her feet a lot.

She sent me an email and it made me want to cry because she's so upset and stressed out. Apparently my dad got angry and doesn't want to cook because my mom was upset that he's barely cooked anything the past few days. He also apparently hasn't been doing chores and won't help my brother with homework. My mom does all this and more.

I love my dad to death, but he's extremely spaced out and gets irritated easily, especially as a diabetic whose blood sugar isn't always the best.

My mom even suggested that I didn't have to come home because I probably wouldn't like it. That made me really sad.

I feel awful to see my family being under so much pressure. I love my mom a lot. She does so much.