god, i've really fucked up.
the only person i've ever felt such a connection with, i've done everything i can to hurt. and now it's coming back to bite me in the ass.
i cant say i blame him, i'm the jackass of the situation, but goddamnit, what do i do now?
try? beg? plead? cry? i'm sure doing all of those things.
and nothing matters. i'm still being ignored. being treated like the piece of shit that i am.
i dont want sympathy. i dont deserve it. what i want is for him, the only person who can make this any better, to at least hear me out. to at least see me. to at least let me say hello to his family that i've been wanting to meet for the past year and a half.
WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKUP?!
the only person i've ever felt such a connection with, i've done everything i can to hurt. and now it's coming back to bite me in the ass.
i cant say i blame him, i'm the jackass of the situation, but goddamnit, what do i do now?
try? beg? plead? cry? i'm sure doing all of those things.
and nothing matters. i'm still being ignored. being treated like the piece of shit that i am.
i dont want sympathy. i dont deserve it. what i want is for him, the only person who can make this any better, to at least hear me out. to at least see me. to at least let me say hello to his family that i've been wanting to meet for the past year and a half.
WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKUP?!
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sometimes no matter how much you try hun, things just aren't going to work. but i guess there is a reason for it, i have no clue what the reasoning is......
Also, I have absolutely no problem with y'all having a drunken night like that. Hmmm, I think next time I make that drive I have to have somewhere to spend the night or something--it's craziness.