mocha

oh honey, thanks for the 'warning.'

you're such a pal, i always seem to forget.

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in not sticking with my no-drama resolution, i'm crying myself to sleep at 5 am in new orleans, finally.

in completely separate news, i'm crying myself to sleep at 5 am wishing i was home with my family. rough times.

all in all, i couldnt be sadder if i tried. if you think you can comfort me, please, reserve it for someone else, because chances are the closer you get the more you'll try to hurt me.

i just attract that kind of attention.
i feel like such an asshole because i dont need to be bitching right now. i mean, when will i accept the fact that this is all my fault? it always has been. i just really need to shut my mouth and learn.

i'm throwin my hands in the air. i've surrendered the control and i'm dealing with it. i'll let you know when i have some dignity* again.

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*(undeserved)


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if i could go back in time, i never would've gone to that party. you'd be with someone stable, i'd be... well, probably a lot better off. oh, regrets. i think this is number 4 or so in the life count, you should feel....

important.