i feel like such a cunt. goddamnit. i officially have nothing to do on my only night off. whatever.
i'll go... kill something.
or sit here alone like i've been doing all day. oh wait, i haven't been alone, my company has just been really shitty.
i'm hungry and can't go anywhere alone, because it's dark, and scary. I have no food. I have a headache from chainsmoking because i really hate smoking, but it's good when you're pissed.
i guess i'm a sucker. fuck him, right? well shit. it's hard. and who can i take advice from? no one even has any idea what's going on. it's a lot more complicated than it seems. and i hope no one replies with "it's not complicated, he cheated, so leave!" because it IS complicated. there were all-around issues, and it happened at an understandable time. acceptable? fuck no. understandable? yes.
but still. i feel like shit.
i'll go... kill something.
or sit here alone like i've been doing all day. oh wait, i haven't been alone, my company has just been really shitty.
i'm hungry and can't go anywhere alone, because it's dark, and scary. I have no food. I have a headache from chainsmoking because i really hate smoking, but it's good when you're pissed.
i guess i'm a sucker. fuck him, right? well shit. it's hard. and who can i take advice from? no one even has any idea what's going on. it's a lot more complicated than it seems. and i hope no one replies with "it's not complicated, he cheated, so leave!" because it IS complicated. there were all-around issues, and it happened at an understandable time. acceptable? fuck no. understandable? yes.
but still. i feel like shit.
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theg:
Hey yo. Sorry you're having a rough time right now. From everything I've seen of you, you seem like a really decent person, so I can only wish you the best of luck right now. I realize that that may not go very far, but do know that there are people out there who wish you well, and I am one of them.
frankdatizank:
Been there siter, My ex, cheated on me like two months ago... You are left with all these feelings for that person and at the same time this realization that its over. It is so hard to grasp...