the depression is setting in. drinking to etreme excess, self destructive spending sprees, the hatred of leaving the house and seeing people.
not good.
not good at all.
something has to change.
i think it is me.
not good.
not good at all.
something has to change.
i think it is me.
drinking will MAKE you depressed. it is a drug with LASTING EFFECTS.
stop drinking and things will get better - you will have to adjust to not being medicated (or self-medicate some other way), but alcohol's extensive side-effects will subside, you'll be more healthy and energetic inside of a week....
i approve of not being around people, from your pics it looks like tehre are plenty of other cool places to go, and i can imagine how difficult the japanese culture of consumerism on steroids can be to tolerate/resist....
just keep it together, and don't worry too much (stress is also bad for you)...
you say something has to change? just remember, something ALWAYS changes... (maybe it is always you)