I need friends. alone i am a ticking time bomb. my mind spirals into decay, my drinking blossoms out of control, i start to think bad things.
why do i have to be trapped with these children? Fools and idiots, surrounding me all the time, blocking every exit and shadowing every happy moment till i want to tear down every wall in my head and let all my misery and anger and frustration burn the world like cleansing fire. I can't keep turning it inward.
they don't deserve my restraint.
why do i have to be trapped with these children? Fools and idiots, surrounding me all the time, blocking every exit and shadowing every happy moment till i want to tear down every wall in my head and let all my misery and anger and frustration burn the world like cleansing fire. I can't keep turning it inward.
they don't deserve my restraint.
besides, anesthetizing doesn't even give you a healthy psychosis. it's just another method of forgetting.
instead, take up hobbies, like bomb-building, or writing obscure and muddled anarchist tracts, or tracking and killing wildlife naked with tools you made from salvaged car parts.
("let it burn, wanna let it burn, wanna let it burn, wanna wanna let it burn")