Stop Thinking.
I believe that an excessive amount of thinking is self pollution. Awhile back I was living in Phoenix, Arizona, I had three roommates two girls and one guy. I was priorly friends with the guy, but the girls were newly found acquaintances. When I had moved in there was an overwhelming feeling of joy, I felt as if I where back to reclaim my social throne of the city. I being a musician had always received a lot of praise for my creativity, although now the fellow ego's around me would lay that to rest.
Throughout my days there I was overwhelmed by the critical opinions of my peers, this however sent my ego into analyze mode, I started to question everything I said and did. I began to develop self worth insecurities, which brought about the vivid memory of watching my grandfather pass away over night. These circular patterns of thoughts, brought me to even question existence. I periodically had panic attacks which led to tremendous anxiety for reasons I was unsure. Then it hit me I have lost my identity, I could no longer find myself conceptually, in anything I did, have done or will do, nor in the people that I knew.
As my connectivity with the world began to halt, my paranoia's gained strength over me. I began to feel like a paranoid schizophrenic leeching to find a friend in whatever I could, but all I found was emptiness. Then out of the blue an epiphany. I came to the realization that this reality of fear was all self perpetuated, it was a ll generated from my mind as are all labels and identities. "Why?" I asked myself then it dawned on me, why am I looking to my mind for the solution, when my mind is the reason I feel this way.
I realized that the only way to overcome this, and any other brand of disfunction is to dis-identify my existence with what my mind perceives and develops. Once I had stopped the mental noise a new level of awareness within me arose. This level of consciousness was what buddha referred to as enlightenment. With these spotty glimpses of enlightenment I had found the door to a deeper realm of existence, real reality.
In this deeper reality, all life and all detail shines like a spec of light in a field of darkness. The beauty is finally uncovered from though. Knowledge is vast, for the fact that I stopped being the know and stared being the knowing. The world is not an idea it is, as I am.
I feel that the world can benefit from this ability to stop thinking compulsively, for once the thoughts have stopped all of the conditioned patterns, and biases will cease to exist. There will be no war from conflict of idea when the world is not motivated by fear but by acceptance. From my life experience I have learned that people thrive upon acceptance. Although no one can accept for the fear of rejection, but the fear of rejection will end when the thoughts stop living vicariously through us.
On another note once our awareness leaves our minds and enters the external, our brains can work at full esteem. Solving problems that the general public was to oblivious to conceive. There will be no limitations, for the mind develops personal barriers which generates a personal reality for each individual. Although once everyone is perceiving real reality no one will fall a victim. Now I see the true nature of the world not just the labels I have obtained. I finally get to meet everyone in my life not just the idea of the person but the actuality of their existence. Everything is interconnected, now I see everything is love.
I believe that an excessive amount of thinking is self pollution. Awhile back I was living in Phoenix, Arizona, I had three roommates two girls and one guy. I was priorly friends with the guy, but the girls were newly found acquaintances. When I had moved in there was an overwhelming feeling of joy, I felt as if I where back to reclaim my social throne of the city. I being a musician had always received a lot of praise for my creativity, although now the fellow ego's around me would lay that to rest.
Throughout my days there I was overwhelmed by the critical opinions of my peers, this however sent my ego into analyze mode, I started to question everything I said and did. I began to develop self worth insecurities, which brought about the vivid memory of watching my grandfather pass away over night. These circular patterns of thoughts, brought me to even question existence. I periodically had panic attacks which led to tremendous anxiety for reasons I was unsure. Then it hit me I have lost my identity, I could no longer find myself conceptually, in anything I did, have done or will do, nor in the people that I knew.
As my connectivity with the world began to halt, my paranoia's gained strength over me. I began to feel like a paranoid schizophrenic leeching to find a friend in whatever I could, but all I found was emptiness. Then out of the blue an epiphany. I came to the realization that this reality of fear was all self perpetuated, it was a ll generated from my mind as are all labels and identities. "Why?" I asked myself then it dawned on me, why am I looking to my mind for the solution, when my mind is the reason I feel this way.
I realized that the only way to overcome this, and any other brand of disfunction is to dis-identify my existence with what my mind perceives and develops. Once I had stopped the mental noise a new level of awareness within me arose. This level of consciousness was what buddha referred to as enlightenment. With these spotty glimpses of enlightenment I had found the door to a deeper realm of existence, real reality.
In this deeper reality, all life and all detail shines like a spec of light in a field of darkness. The beauty is finally uncovered from though. Knowledge is vast, for the fact that I stopped being the know and stared being the knowing. The world is not an idea it is, as I am.
I feel that the world can benefit from this ability to stop thinking compulsively, for once the thoughts have stopped all of the conditioned patterns, and biases will cease to exist. There will be no war from conflict of idea when the world is not motivated by fear but by acceptance. From my life experience I have learned that people thrive upon acceptance. Although no one can accept for the fear of rejection, but the fear of rejection will end when the thoughts stop living vicariously through us.
On another note once our awareness leaves our minds and enters the external, our brains can work at full esteem. Solving problems that the general public was to oblivious to conceive. There will be no limitations, for the mind develops personal barriers which generates a personal reality for each individual. Although once everyone is perceiving real reality no one will fall a victim. Now I see the true nature of the world not just the labels I have obtained. I finally get to meet everyone in my life not just the idea of the person but the actuality of their existence. Everything is interconnected, now I see everything is love.