mjthekracker

went to a really lame new years party in Silver Lake. It was a nice house and everything, but the whole hollywood crowd is talking to someone while they are looking for someone better to talk to. I wasn't too flirty because I wasn't interested in hooking up because I'm only interested in Kirsten now. So not flirting made it not that fun. I ended up just drinking a lot with my Heather. Shes one of my best friends and shes leaving for Amsterdam for a year in three days. I'm scared because when she leaves my friend quotient will go down drastically. I hate missing someone while you're sitting next to them.

by the way, shes been gay for 8 years and she just started dating a boy. Now all our friends are either happy for her or really pissed. This whole gay straight thing bugs me. I'm not "gay" but I would date a guy if I found one that I was interested in. I think you fall in love with people not sexs. anyways, she is happier than I have seen her in a long time.

I'm afraid too much. I quit school to move out here and be an actor, and I'm doing well for a 21 year old. But I'm afraid that the lack of schooling will come back and bite me in the ass. My band has a show on the 14th that a bunch of executives from different places are coming to. I'm afraid that they will not understand our music. Our music is different, but not in that new "hip" way. I'm afraid we've gone back in time about ten years instead of creating anything too new.

My mom recently gave me a quilt that my great grandmother made for me. I had left it at my moms house because I didnt know it was made for me. It's the best quilt ever.