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I am downloading all the seasons to the powerpuff girls because I was making kool aid and realized you no longer have to add sugar to it, I am almost tempted to pick up some pizza rolls to eat while I watch all 6 seasons.
I'm not working right now, I have to much time to think. I've been smoking entirely too much and cocktail hour is becoming earlier and earlier. I have been spending a a lot of time reading at the moment 'the bell jar' and most books i seem to pick out are about some crazy mother fucking making me think i am crazy or that i am just going mad. I've dancing more lately usually when i just wake up because i have a tendency to wake up angry and dancing makes me feel better.
Anyways no job, running out of money, still in ohio, now ex boyfriend is in colorado. I've been doing tattoos out of my apartment and attempting to get modeling jobs. Thinking about going to school for something art related but then I remembered I hate school. I could barely stay in high school not because i couldnt or wouldnt do the work but most people piss me off, and I don't think I have ever studied for anything ever and I'm pretty sure that will be a requirement to get throuigh college.

I need a project, maybe start with some inspiration, possibly first gather some will to do it at all,