Hey all you lovely people of SG as the title suggests I have some things I wanna get off my chest. As you guys know if somethings happening in whatever way I'm pretty open. Right now I wanna level with you guys for quite a while now I've not been in a good mindset Ive been feeling really down and depressed. I've been questioning myself on everything an just feeling what's the point (not feeling sucidal) I just wanna make that clear but I feel so shitty I struggle to even find a reason to get up out of bed.

I do have some huge plans on the horizon and I mean huge but unfortunately I cannot disclose anything yet an I feel nows just not the right time to announce them. But once it's concrete you guys will be the 1st to know there's only a very selected few on here actually know what they are.

Which makes this next part even more shitty for quite some time now I've been feeling extremely lonely I feel like I have nobody in my life an people I onced called best friends whenever an if I ever see them I feel so alienated from everyone it's unreal an I'm really confused about my love life it's just non existent I want a girlfriend no I want a fuck buddy over an over it races through my mind I guess I'm just not 100% sure what I want but a relationship I dont mostly because of the plans I have on the horizon there's just no room for a relationship until after these plans are set an achieved

This will probably be the last thing in the blog an I can't even believe I'm actually saying this I began to question wether I still even want to be here on SG now I love you guys so much like you wouldn't believe but just being online friends just doesn't feel enough like you beautiful ladies the ones in particular I post regularly on thier profiles you know who you are I love you ladies but it really hurts that I can't seem to have you in anyway wether it be friendship or relationship an anything inbetween an it's sucks so much more that you live outside the UK that's the part that probably kills me the most

I do apologise for the length of the blog but I just really had to get it off my chest an that what is going on with me at the moment sorry I'm not happy and chirpy 😔