I don't buy into Fifty Shades of Grey. I've read all of the books and seen all the movies to make sure I knew what I was talking about.... it's not my thing. To be clear- BDSM IS my thing. But Abuse is not. And unfortunately Fifty Shades of Grey is riddled with coercion and psychological abuse.
As a survivor of traumatic psychological abuse, I can tell you it really does a number on you. I question everything about reality and what is and isn't my fault. I'm always in my own head doubting myself now. But I have a found a way to be free... through kink and bdsm.
It's amazing how handing over control of yourself to someone you trust , can take care of your mind. You know that for now you are someone else's concern. I have no room for noisy self doubting thoughts when I am being commanded and following my orders. The voices can't haunt me as I'm being led by a leash around the room on my knees. I'm busy. I'm proud. I'm doing something right and making someone happy. And that person is there to care for me. If I make a mistake they will discipline me to help me learn and then comfort me. Not explode in rage and then abandon me. I have no time for reliving trauma while I am receiving my after care.
Somehow... being controlled, restrained, bound, and owned is the most liberating act of My life. Nothing feels as freeing as the dynamics of BDSM. I am so thankful for this freedom. I deserve it.
