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I am freaked out I was totally devistated I was really close to a nervous breakdown because of loosing the last 3 years or work and passion. Made me really look inside myself and search for answers... I was feeling really empty whilst pondering my losses it was horrible their was nothing I could do to make myself not think about it, I felt so phisically sick, I numbed myself with pain killers to try and get some sleep.
I booked my computer in for disaster file recovery: lost the last 3 years of photographs so I am freaking out a little apparently the guy fixing it said that there is a good chance i will get mostly everything back, it's just gonna take them like 5 days or somthing. One of my lovley friends loaned me their computer so I dont go completley insane. Oh the faith we put in modern technology WITHOUT A COMPUTER I AM NO LONGER A PHOTOGRAPHER I am not sure how I am meant to feel.