mistresscrabby

So I saw the video for Dolly Parton's song Better Get to Livin the other day. I love Dolly she manages to be sexy, trampy and classy all at once, and that's not an easy accomplishment! Anyway, I'm listening to the message in the song, and she's absolutely right. You have to be responsible for your own life, you can't wait for things to come to you or you'll have a long, lonely existence. So why is being proactive the hard part?

I want to get in shape, get a new and better job to make more money, feel better about myself. It's not like I'm happy just existing right now. My job is dead-end. All I do is work and sleep, I need to be more active about achieving what I want from life, but it's like I don't have the motivation inside to do it. Where do I find that spark that will get me out of my funk, and get to doing what I want, what makes me happy and feel hole. Hell, how do I find out what will make me feel happy and whole. I haven't been doing any of that for so long, I'm not sure what it is I really do want. I'd like somebody to tell me what that is, but I know that's defeating the purpose of this whole blog.

Spending time searching for what I desire is my goal. I don't know where to start, but as long as I'm just working and sleeping, I'm not going to find it. I have to get off of my lazy ass, and start. Isn't that the point? Making the effort. This won't be easy, but the payoff will be amazing.