So it's been a while since i'd last updated properly. I feel like there's this gap i need to fill you all in on, but tbh, I've drank, been to bed and thus cba to recall all the meaningless shit that's happened over the past couple of months in great detail. It has had it's ups and downs, heck everyone does, but of late I'm starting to feel further down and I dislike that very much. However, I think the worst point is when your ex visits and remarks about how little you smile anymore.
I'm frustrated, lonely and tired of people trying to bully me. I know usually i'm a tough cookie, but even I have my limits before i break because of the high school-esque, bitchy mentality of trying to tread all over any feelings I have. I'm no angel, but I don't feel like I'm a horrible git and deserve that treatment. People are so aggressive sometimes, just to make themselves feel better, it's sad.
I want the wife to be nearer to me:
She is the one girl who knows me inside and out, one of the only people who just has to look at me and we both end up rolling on the floor, wetting our knickers with laughter.... I miss her lots
. I miss countless others too, but I don't wanna make a big list, they should know who they are.
Thankfully i'll see the wife very soon cause I'm not staying in Leeds this xmas, I'm going home. I know me and my mum aren't very close, and she can do my noggin in sometimes, but it'll be nice to spend some quality time with the poor bugger who's put up with me for 22 years, and a lot of shit to go with me. However this xmas will be weird as it's my 1st as a single girl in 5 years.
So, yeah, bad patch for me of late. I think atm, i just need a big squeeze and be told this will all go away soon
I'll have a couple of jaegers for you in Londres. Of course.
And you'll get a big hug from me in January
I can't go into the specifics, but you'll just have to trust me on this one, okay?