misterjesus

Sweet it's sunday WWE is on, I'll grab a few ep's of Star Trek later on.

I think I've come a bit more to terms with XXXXX leaving me.

You know that sinking feeling you get just after or about the time of being dumped, well I have that but it's not as bad as I thought it might have been, we had many many problems, I can understand why she does not want to be with me, not discounting the fact that she is a very emotionally cold person and I doubt she ever enjoyed being physical with my anyways, she told me that she has never been heartbroken, well I've had enough for the both of us.

I'm not saying this a one sided split I'm not easy to live with, I am a very insecure person and I needed her alot, in some way having her in my life gave me a purpose a reason for doing things, you know the kind of thing you try to decide on some sort of plan for your life, like this year I am going to buy a house and in a few years I'll save seome money up, well it was typical stuff like that for me, being on my own did'nt seem to give me the sense of "having a plan" being with her meant I have somebody to care for, to support. I guess I just did it wrong.

The really bizzare thing is if she would have asked, I would do anything for her.

I know it's hard for some people to see why I should let this upset my life so much, well just be glad that you don't have to feel the same as I do some people are just luckier in love than others.

my situation is not helped by feeling so tired and sick all the time, heh heh ever been sick and tired of being sick and tired?

A few words about Israel now,

Such a lovely place great food, cheap ciggarettes, and really friendly people.

thanks to Bracket for just being herself.

ps. her friends are all uber hotties.


Merry Fishmas everybody!