Hi all. Still kind of struggling here, but it's getting a lot better. I finally got up with my psychiatrist and she hooked me up. I still spend a lot of time in bed, and I also don't have a lot of interest in things that I usually love. But we're getting there slowly but surely. I guess counseling is the next order of the day. It's just so hard to get into. Everything is so overwhelming, you don't understand, or maybe you do if you have anxiety. Even the smallest most mundane things like making a phone call can be the most overwhelming things in the world. Even folding a little bit of laundry sounds like an insurmountable task. It took me months to get some paperwork in for my middle daughter to the schools just because it was simply too much to have to open the email and read it and fill out the forms and everything… It's all just too much. And I hate that. I love my children and I want to enjoy them, I want to be a good mother, I want to be a good wife. But my mental health is standing in my way and I hate that. But I'm trying. Just trying. I love you all.
