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Ba-fuckin-humbug. I HATE the holidays or rather dispise would be a better word I'm sure. It's just it never fails I can't go a whole 365 days without losing at least 1 person. This year I hit my average again with 3. 2 car accidents and a suicidehow fun. I don't know how people expect me to hold it together for Thanksgiving tomorrow and then go to a funeral Friday and a memorial for Dylan on Saturday. It's going to be just like it was when Dylan died everyone just automatically assumes that I don't need comforted because I've been through this shit so much. I'm the "strong" one, well my idea of fun isn't sitting in the corner of a funeral chain smoking and crying to myself. Grr...yeah I'm a little upset. I get angry when I'm hurt. How come all of the people that deserve to die never do and all of the incredibly awesome people with huge hearts are the first to go? Anyways, still awaiting further notice about my set. Keeping my fingers crossed. Well at least I'll get a vacation away from the death and snow (by the way, I don't work so well with snow. It's kind of funny though). I'll be in Vegas in two weeks looking to start over with a new everything. (Not saying that I'm trying to forget about everything here and pretend I didn't have a life before just you know...........moving on.) So until after the funeral .............may everyone have a safe and fun Thanksgiving. Happy Turkeyday to everyone and if you're a vegitarian Happy Soy-day or something.