missred

still no luck with a place to live. im over now...about to say fuck it.
found out im gonna be an aunt....want to be more excited but this girl is soooooo not ready for this. neither is my brother. i love him, i love him with every ounce of my being but for the love of all things...WTF?! he knows where babies come from. they are just so young, i hate that they are now going to be so limited in their lives, they are going to have to grow up...NOW. she has a shitty, horrible, awful family that i am now tied to forever....yay. its just all around not good. im gonna love that baby so much but i already feel bad for it. this family is going to do everything to make sure it comes up right but you can only do so much when the mother isnt the one who is blood...it scares me. we will make it work.
i have a cider buzz and need a nap...