misspripri

Hello~

How was everyones weekend? Mine was ok. Worked all weekend. Went to see a band play last night. Guess who I saw there? My ex with his new girlfriend even though he claimed that they broke up. That boy confuses me beyond belief.. One minute your touchy feely with me and then you go back to her. F*ck you!!!!!!!!!!! But lately I have contained my anger. I just pretend that they weren't there. I had fun anyways despite the hand holding and making out in front of me. Talk about nauseous I kept feeling llike I was going to throw up Just to think about puts a damper on my parade. My friends kept reasuring me that I was prettier than her. But I don't care what she looks like I just don't understand that you can throw everything away after 5 years.

I mean I was getting over him. But he walked back into my life. Its like he has some sort of radar on me letting him now that I am moving on. So he comes back in to mess with my head some more. - : Arrrrggggg They say time wounds the broken heart. But my heart remains the same. I 've tried the whole dating thing and I don't really like it. All I want to do is just sit at home and not go anywhere. I wish I could sleep for days. Because at least I am happy when I am dreaming. I wish I could have that euphoric state of mind again. I am right back to where I started. The worst place someone could be.

I made my decision. I need to get the hell out of here. I would love to move and never hear from him again. But Iconvinced my mom and dad to let me go on vacation all by myself. I need to experience life first hand. I have always dreamed of traveling all over the world. To understand more of all the beautiful cultures out there. Places where I would like to go is Japan, Australia, Peru, Italy, Spain, Portugal, Egypt, and Africa. To name a few.

Well thats what is on my mind right now.

talk to you later