I've started to write down the dates of when I go through bad spells, I'm hoping there will be some sort of pattern. Then I just realized what will I do when / if I find out there's a pattern? Sit there and know its coming and wait it out? Its a little bit shit isn't it. For no apparent or real reason I was beyond depressed this weekend, I cried quite a bit and just felt so low. I think it was worse that there was no trigger - even worse that I was with someone that makes me very happy. I know he doesn't think any less of me or is hurt by my mood this weekend.
Sometimes I'm really worried that I'm really boring.
I guess I'm just shy - but there are sometimes that I am really outspoken especially if I am around people that I know or are on a similar intellectual wavelength. I think more often I get intimidated a lot.
I have no idea what I hope to achieve with this blog.
Otherwise generally things are going really well, I really do love my new job - I'm so happy there I feel like I'm appreciated. On costuming I do need to work on my halloween costume - starting tomorrow I need to make another mock up then I'm diving in and getting it done. I have a few photoshoots being planned and other things generally so much feels like midway and I just really do need to gather my shit together.
Well till next time friends and stalkers. x
Sometimes I'm really worried that I'm really boring.
I guess I'm just shy - but there are sometimes that I am really outspoken especially if I am around people that I know or are on a similar intellectual wavelength. I think more often I get intimidated a lot.
I have no idea what I hope to achieve with this blog.
Otherwise generally things are going really well, I really do love my new job - I'm so happy there I feel like I'm appreciated. On costuming I do need to work on my halloween costume - starting tomorrow I need to make another mock up then I'm diving in and getting it done. I have a few photoshoots being planned and other things generally so much feels like midway and I just really do need to gather my shit together.
Well till next time friends and stalkers. x
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Thinking of that Carrot Costume makes me smile every time
Keeping track of moods might help, you might spot triggers that aren't that apparent, or can plan to take extra time for yourself if you know you're not going to feeling at your brightest? I hate that unsure limbo. Hope you feel better soon.