missmoth

Ive changed my relationship status to single, ready because I know whats going to happen, I just want it to all be over now. It's mega upsetting but theres not a lot I can do, to be honest its just me I think. I bring these things on myself, I know I do but it doesn't stop it happening. God three years man, three years of being with someone that I thought would be the person id move in with and really be happy with. I am a bit of a fool.
I just need to go through all the stages now, the upset stage, angry stage then apathetic and then happy.

I'm going to just have some fun now, get my university project done, slim down again and just try not to let this stop me. I need to prove to myself that I don't need him, I am probably better off without the distraction. I think next year ill move on from where I am, apply to Uni somewhere further away or maybe I'll head back to Europe, probably not Italy though.

It just sucks because after 3 years hes infiltrated every aspect of my life, almost all the photos of my dog have him in there too. It also sucks that I cant see him at all after this breakup, we seem to always go through this cycle of it ending in us sleeping with each other and trying to go for it again. I just cant do that this time, just never ever want to see him again.