missminda

I'm really fucking angry with myself. So, my back continued to hurt and get worse but I soldiered on through. Got dressed up for work, which I was excited about because every month we have a dress up night and my outfit looked AWESOME. Went in and visited a friend at his bar to drop some shit off and get him to buy me a drink but my back got worse and worse. By the time I got into work I was sick from the pain and was seeing blurry. My boss checked me out and found my entire back was swollen and I couldn't move properley so they sent me home. I got my brother to pick me up and we went to the A&E. 5 hours later and they can't find out what's wrong with me so they give me painkillers and send me home. I COULD HAVE SELF MEDICATED MY OWN DAMNED PAIN KILLERS AND CONTINUED WORKING!! I'm angry with myself because I submitted to the pain. I should have stuffed myself full of drugs and kicked on. I needed this weeks shifts and they gave me decent hours too. *grrr*!! Plus I would have gotten laid tonight Apart from that though I would have liked an answer. I never lie when it comes to pain - I pride myself on having a high pain threshold and this knocked me. I just wish I knew why.

Meh, on the positive: it's 2:30am and I'm in my bed. I have codeine forte. I'm going to get an awesome sleep. Work tomorrow will be good