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Pete & I are on a break
Earlier in the year I was diagnosed with depression with anxiety. I've been taking drugs to get me to a level which I am able to start therapy. I have to see a psychologist then afterwards a psychiatrist.
Lately I've been feeling less & less in control.
Ever feel like you're falling & you can't wait to stop?
There's 1 person that I think knows what's really going down & they're doing their damndest to stop me from doing anything stupid. I think they're falling too.
I'm on break with Pete because I feel like I'm hurting him. No, I know I'm hurting him. I know being on break hurts him anyway but I think it's less of a hurt than I'm capable of causing right now. Maybe I'm protecting him??
I've booked my psychologist appointment.
Hopefully everything will start getting better. At least good enough for me to figuring shit out.
LOVE.
Pete & I are on a break
Earlier in the year I was diagnosed with depression with anxiety. I've been taking drugs to get me to a level which I am able to start therapy. I have to see a psychologist then afterwards a psychiatrist.
Lately I've been feeling less & less in control.
Ever feel like you're falling & you can't wait to stop?
There's 1 person that I think knows what's really going down & they're doing their damndest to stop me from doing anything stupid. I think they're falling too.
I'm on break with Pete because I feel like I'm hurting him. No, I know I'm hurting him. I know being on break hurts him anyway but I think it's less of a hurt than I'm capable of causing right now. Maybe I'm protecting him??
I've booked my psychologist appointment.
Hopefully everything will start getting better. At least good enough for me to figuring shit out.
LOVE.
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I've come so close to stepping back from the guy I'm seeing but I'm too much of a chicken. Good luck hon.