missmay

I'm absolutely freaked out right now.
Baby will be on his way if not here by this time tomorrow.
This is real.
My whole life as I know it will be changed forever.
It's already changed with being pregnant, but he's been in my belly.
So as real as he's been, he's still not been as real as he will be tomorrow.
I know I can do this.
I'm scared though.
Not scared for him, selfishly and rightfully scared for my job,
Big breaths.
I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight; as much as I need it.

I almost called Dustin last night.
He would have made me feel bad for calling him, so I just went and sat in the nursery and cried a little.
I just want peace between us, regardless of Aeson, but mostly for Aeson really.

Tomorrow is it!