missmay

I know today was supposed to be a happy day. It was my birthday. Today was probably one of the most depressing days I've had in a long time. I just went into the Pregnant group and there were labor pics. They made me cry even more than I have been all day. There is one so precious of the two of them, her looking like such a strong woman embracing the pain and him holding her hand and kissing her temple. I will be alone.

When can I say I hate you and mean it? Oh thats right, never. But it's okay from the other end? I have to stop being bitter, but that's hard. I am just hurt now. I just want my baby here. One of my girlfriends just had her lil boy Mason yesterday at 6:31. (The 11th) I want my baby. I'm jealous.

Hopefully sooner than later. At my appointment on the 26th I should know for sure when baby will be born; if they want to take him before my due date, if he'll be ready by then, or if I'm going to have a 10lb baby.

I really just want a cuddle.
And thanks for all the birthday wishes.


Card from my mom that started all the crying :

Baby on the way says: "Happy Birthday to Mommy"
Hi mommy, it is lil ole me
with a birthday greeting from your baby to be
I'm reaching out at this important time
With a message that is one of a kind
Today is a day like no other
The day you were born to be my mother
Blow out the candles as you make a wish
Inside your belly I'll give you a kiss
When family and friends start to clap
I'll join in by giving a tap
I'll be at your next party so have no fear
Cause next year at this time I'll be out of here

Happy Birthday Mommy
Love, Your Baby on the Way.