missmay

I thought this emotional rollercoaster was gone. He just ruined my whole day.. And he wasn't even there. That's what the problem was. He's not there. I pre-registered at the hospital and scheduled my tour for the birthing centers. Every form I filled out and and every other question was, " what's the father's name? Will the father be present? Will the father this, that.. etc..." I left every one of them blank. Aeson's last name, according to the hospital, will be mine as of now. It sucks because it asked for both responsible party's information. There's only one responsible party. I was crying so hard on the way home I almost had to pull over. Sometimes I wish he was dead, that way I'd feel better about him not being there.

I'm getting really financially stressed out now too. If he won't give me respect and some sort of support, I just want his money. This is becoming too much on me. I wish it wasn't like this.