I kind of wish I didn't work in a bar. Don't get me wrong, I love my job. But I'm getting very down again. I'm ready to not be pregnant anymore. I was talking to Josh ( 
) when Roger whips out these pictures on his phone of this ultimate hottie. I went to the back and cried for a minute. Then took a look around at the girls who were in there having fun with their girlfriends wearing high heels and little dresses. I'm vain, and I know that. I'm not conceited though, or cocky. But I do take pride in my appearance. I understand a pregnant woman is a beautiful thing, but I'm becoming jealous! I'm going swimming at one of my regional managers houses on Sunday. I don't want to impress him, but I'd like to look good in my bikini. I'd like to not wobble or be called the pregnant chick anymore. I hate to be like this, this is an amazing time in my life. But it's summer!
Josh thinks I'm beautiful. A lot of people think I'm 'a really hott pregnant chick.' I want that title taken back! I just want to be a hott chick again! I suppose this is just motivation for me to get in shape again once he comes out!! I have a membership at Premiere Fitness and they offer free childcare. Plus the gym is open 24 hours. I'm going to start using the oliptical. It's an amazing workout for pregnant women, plus really the only place besides my belly I've gained any weight is in my thighs. That's inevitable though. FUCK!!
I need to stop being like this. It's unhealthy, but it's getting me down.
OOOh baby Aeson in my belly.. Please come soon so I can hold you in my arms! I day dream about you and how perfect you are all the time. You are sooo busy these days. More than usual! And lately you've really dropped in my belly and have started putting imense amounts of pressure on my cervix. It's becoming uncomfortable, but not painful. It just means you're getting even more prepared to come out and meet everyone who loves you! When I get sad I think of you and put my hand on my tummy and you usually give me a swift kick or stick your tush out the right side of my belly as if to say "my part of the tummy, back off lady!"
Oh..Heard a good myth about dreams... The more vivid and terrifying the nightmares, the smoother and quicker birth and labor are. We'll see!
) when Roger whips out these pictures on his phone of this ultimate hottie. I went to the back and cried for a minute. Then took a look around at the girls who were in there having fun with their girlfriends wearing high heels and little dresses. I'm vain, and I know that. I'm not conceited though, or cocky. But I do take pride in my appearance. I understand a pregnant woman is a beautiful thing, but I'm becoming jealous! I'm going swimming at one of my regional managers houses on Sunday. I don't want to impress him, but I'd like to look good in my bikini. I'd like to not wobble or be called the pregnant chick anymore. I hate to be like this, this is an amazing time in my life. But it's summer!
Josh thinks I'm beautiful. A lot of people think I'm 'a really hott pregnant chick.' I want that title taken back! I just want to be a hott chick again! I suppose this is just motivation for me to get in shape again once he comes out!! I have a membership at Premiere Fitness and they offer free childcare. Plus the gym is open 24 hours. I'm going to start using the oliptical. It's an amazing workout for pregnant women, plus really the only place besides my belly I've gained any weight is in my thighs. That's inevitable though. FUCK!!
I need to stop being like this. It's unhealthy, but it's getting me down.
OOOh baby Aeson in my belly.. Please come soon so I can hold you in my arms! I day dream about you and how perfect you are all the time. You are sooo busy these days. More than usual! And lately you've really dropped in my belly and have started putting imense amounts of pressure on my cervix. It's becoming uncomfortable, but not painful. It just means you're getting even more prepared to come out and meet everyone who loves you! When I get sad I think of you and put my hand on my tummy and you usually give me a swift kick or stick your tush out the right side of my belly as if to say "my part of the tummy, back off lady!"
Oh..Heard a good myth about dreams... The more vivid and terrifying the nightmares, the smoother and quicker birth and labor are. We'll see!
Usually.
But it's tough seeing my super hot skinny friends. I've actually started to hate one of them, and she is over at my house everyday! What makes it worse is she is nazi death camp skinny! 5'6" and 103lbs!!!
That's good that Josh thinks you're hot. At least he doesn't look at you and say "Damn, bitch got fat!" Even as a joke, it still annoys me on certain, overly emotional days. And yeah, I hear that too: "You're a hot preggo chick!" but it doesn't always mean I want to waddle to the pool in my bikini and be surrounded by all the skinny girls.
Don't worry about staying skinny while you're pregnant. And I've actually heard that the elliptical machines can be bad in case you lose your balance and fall, but that walking and swimming are perfectly acceptable, swimming even more so because it helps reduce swelling supposedly.