missmay

Well, Chinese food is good. So is laying out in my bikini. Seeing old friends is nice too, even if it is for only a few minutes.
Crying is not so good. I've done a lot of that today. I bet you're both happy about that one. You're happy because I'm miserable and you're happy because you're off the hook.
I don't think I'll be happy with a guy until after baby is born, and then some. . I've figured it out, why a guy doesn't really want anything to do with a preggo except sex.. They're ashamed of being seen in public with a pregnant girl because they don't want anyone to think it's their kid. So fucking selfish. But I guess I used to feel that way about his kid. It got to the point though, where I was happy when people thought he was ours. It just goes to show the level of maturity in certain people.
You want to still be friends huh? Well, start by making it up by taking me to the zoo... Like you were supposed to in the first place. Then we'll talk.. You enjoy my company and want to spend more time with me? Well, spending time with me includes spending time with my belly too. Yeah, we can be friends, I guess. But don't fucking think you have a chance at banging me. You've made me cry twice now... But the cry today actually ruined my whole day. Not that I was ready to become something with you, but dammit it was nice to think someone might actually have an interest in me. Guess not.
Fuck! I just need someone to hold my hand, or open the door, or take me somewhere and tell me I'm pretty. Maybe rub my back or go on a walk with me.
I think I'm getting a kitten this weekend. I miss having someone/thing to take care of. Yeah, I miss cooking for you and doing your laundry, or cleaning and lighting a candle so it feels like home when you get there. I miss making you brownies or cookies and listening to you bitch about how it's soo bad because you ate half the pan. I miss recording tv shows because I think you'll like them. I know how to treat a man.
You'll never find anyone like me. Promise. You'll never find someone so selfless in bed, someone who will go out of her way to put a smile on your face, someone who understands or at least tries to and accepts it anyway. Someone who will rub your head/back until you fall asleep and then hold your cock while you sleep. (Yeah I know just how to do it. You like it, you know you do, you all do.) You'll never find someone so passionate about, well, anything and everything...
Yeah just go fuck yourself and think of me while you're doing it. But remember to make sure you're thinking of me before I was pregnant. Wouldn't want to throw a wrench into anything....