missmay

Who the fuck was I kidding? Yeah, I thought someone would actually want something more from me than my sex.. My sister got with her husband when she was 5 months pregnant. That gave me hope. It just reminds me how much I miss my Dustin and want him so bad. I need to stop torturing myself. I sometimes wish I wasn't pregnant, then I wouldn't have such strong emotions. I'd be able to handle a guy looking at me as a sexual object, I'd be able to handle being alone just a little bit better. I have thought about getting a lil kitty or puppy.. Maybe a roommate would help too. But I have one coming in September. I'll have my best friend, my one true love of my life, my man! I need a hobby. My last hobby, besides reading which I still enjoy but makes me fall asleep, was fitness. That is still a huge option but I get tired so easily. Man I could use a drink. A straight double of Jack please.
Someone suggested I start writing.. I like writing, a lot. I just can never think of things to write about. I most definitely need a hobby which doesnt cost lots of money..