missmay

Its a boy! He gets excited when I talk to dustin. Well I'm pretty sure he knows I feel better when I talk to him. God, I wish I had a button to take this all away, except the baby of course. I want to quit my job and fly out to be with him. I have to let him go! I can't! I'm in love with him. Truly, madly, deeply in love with him. And who else wants a pregnant girl for anything other than sex anyway? Well, there is one guy, but I don't want him. The only man who wants me I can't stand to be around for more than 10 min at a time and the only man who I want practically hates the fact I exist. I wish baby was here now. I wouldn't be so lonely. I'd have the o ly man I need too. God I wish he was here to take pictures of my growing belly, and to tell me I'm beautiful even when I'm not. I wish he was here to hold me at night when I wake up from a nightmare, or when I cry myself to sleep. I wish he was there to roll over to and give a kiss goodnight and to tell me I love you.
How do you fall out of love? How do I get him to love me again?