missmay

well. i dont know. i love it. i just dont think they get it. shattered isnt just the set name. when i look in the mirror, i see a shattered image. who is that girl i see looking back at me? she isnt real, she's a fucking bitch whore who treats people like shit just because she can. but thats not who i really am. my new years resolution is to stop being so hard on myself. i do it just fine. if i dont, i can learn how, teach me. i am beautiful. outside and in. i have a good heart, i am a good person. i am young, i am naive (believe it or not), i am still premature. immature, no, premature, yes.

tonight wasnt so late. its going to snow... A LOT and i have awesome snow boots. i've been so sick!! i am finally on antibiotics, 3 weeks later, and they're making me sicker than i was! my heat doesnt work, and its about 10 degrees out there. shit.