So I didn't get the car today, they wanted a larger deposit than I can afford because I drive too many miles

Just when I think things are getting better they aren't.
I saw the girl that I have a huge crush on... it's been 2 years and I still think I'm in love with her. I'm attracted to her, but I honestly think i'm in love with her. I hung out with her at work, and she bought me dinner. I haven't had anyone buy me dinner in forever!