misskat

Ah man.
I feel like shit today. I know that I should focus on positive things that I have accomplished in my life so far but I guess it is just a lot easier to focus on the negative. I feel super depressed, and I know this will all pass... It is just a matter of time. I just feel really confused about where I am in life and what I am doing.
My best friend doesn't call me anymore. I call but she is never home and I left a message yesterday... but she never really returns my phone calls. I cried this morning about it because I don't know what is going on. Maybe it is me. I know that she has had some of her friends comment on the fact that she hangs out with a lot of younger people (she is 37) and I think that it bothers her. The only comment that she has made about this bothering her is the fact that she has had to defend herself to her friends (these are people that she has grown up with... and they live out of town). So in conclusion I believe that she isn't hanging out with me as much because of this... but who knows. It could be a hundred other things as well...
All I know is that I feel very lonely and hurt.