Im in love
I went snowboarding. I felt so amazing. So powerful and free and then in an instant Id feel frustrated and hurt. I forgot what it was like to love something. I dont know if im mentally or physically ready to love something again but im going to try anyway.
I was going down the slopes really fast and Id get such a high but then Id let my mind wonder 4 just a second and faceplant. I bailed a couple times and just laughed it of but then I fell really hard and got real guted. Who do you think you are making me feel amazing, smart and talented and then throwing me into the ground like a piece of trash.!!!!!!!!!!
I have an assignment due tomorrow but I havnt even started it. I cant concentrate on work when all I want to do is be snowboarding. I went up the mountain this morning and it was snowing really hard so I couldnt see anything, so I didnt want to be there. We left and now im annoyed at myself for leaving.
My friends said im doing amazing since it was my first time. They think by the end of the season Ill be all good to go up the highest slopes. It would be so cool to be going down the hill and hear them yelling out yeah skrilly!. Josh and laurie came down the hill with me on my first go. It was so cool that they respected me so much to stay with me incase I got hurt. It must have been frustrating for them though as there both pretty much pros. I want Josh to take laurie up to the jumps this year. She hasnt done any big ones yet, so I want Josh to push her and be there incase she gets injured or loses hope.
I have more respect for Josh after seeing him on the mountain. I was so intrigued by how good he was. I still only think of him as a mate but at the same time I think it was cool to see him in his element. Ive turned him down a lot of times and I think he has lost a bit of confidence because of it. I was watching him and I think he felt relieved I was able to see him like that. It reminded me of The movie tarzan. When tarzan he went to the city, he was out of place and uncomfortable and yet as soon as he was in the jungle he was talented and comfortable again. It seems like the same thing to me cause Josh is from a small little town and when he moved to Queenstown I think he became overwhelmed by all the nightlife. I recall him telling me that he turned into a bit of an alcoholic since he been in Queenstown because hes not use to all the clubs.
Im listening to red hot chilly peppers. Shes looks for me ,shes looks for me, alright. Down on the bathroom floor shes searching for another life. She looks for me, she looks for me, alright. Whos going to take you home and hold you when things arent so bright. She looks for me, she looks for me, alright.
The mountain is taking up all my attention and making my moods so up and down. But I like it. I love the challenge and that is something I dont understand. I want to learn it. I want to know what it likes and doesnt like. I want to work with the mountain I want to smoothly glide down it, and have it let me jump of it and then have it safely catch me. I want to understand it!
I will love you. Even if you hurt me. But theres one condition.. Teach me to be better.
I went snowboarding. I felt so amazing. So powerful and free and then in an instant Id feel frustrated and hurt. I forgot what it was like to love something. I dont know if im mentally or physically ready to love something again but im going to try anyway.
I was going down the slopes really fast and Id get such a high but then Id let my mind wonder 4 just a second and faceplant. I bailed a couple times and just laughed it of but then I fell really hard and got real guted. Who do you think you are making me feel amazing, smart and talented and then throwing me into the ground like a piece of trash.!!!!!!!!!!
I have an assignment due tomorrow but I havnt even started it. I cant concentrate on work when all I want to do is be snowboarding. I went up the mountain this morning and it was snowing really hard so I couldnt see anything, so I didnt want to be there. We left and now im annoyed at myself for leaving.
My friends said im doing amazing since it was my first time. They think by the end of the season Ill be all good to go up the highest slopes. It would be so cool to be going down the hill and hear them yelling out yeah skrilly!. Josh and laurie came down the hill with me on my first go. It was so cool that they respected me so much to stay with me incase I got hurt. It must have been frustrating for them though as there both pretty much pros. I want Josh to take laurie up to the jumps this year. She hasnt done any big ones yet, so I want Josh to push her and be there incase she gets injured or loses hope.
I have more respect for Josh after seeing him on the mountain. I was so intrigued by how good he was. I still only think of him as a mate but at the same time I think it was cool to see him in his element. Ive turned him down a lot of times and I think he has lost a bit of confidence because of it. I was watching him and I think he felt relieved I was able to see him like that. It reminded me of The movie tarzan. When tarzan he went to the city, he was out of place and uncomfortable and yet as soon as he was in the jungle he was talented and comfortable again. It seems like the same thing to me cause Josh is from a small little town and when he moved to Queenstown I think he became overwhelmed by all the nightlife. I recall him telling me that he turned into a bit of an alcoholic since he been in Queenstown because hes not use to all the clubs.
Im listening to red hot chilly peppers. Shes looks for me ,shes looks for me, alright. Down on the bathroom floor shes searching for another life. She looks for me, she looks for me, alright. Whos going to take you home and hold you when things arent so bright. She looks for me, she looks for me, alright.
The mountain is taking up all my attention and making my moods so up and down. But I like it. I love the challenge and that is something I dont understand. I want to learn it. I want to know what it likes and doesnt like. I want to work with the mountain I want to smoothly glide down it, and have it let me jump of it and then have it safely catch me. I want to understand it!
I will love you. Even if you hurt me. But theres one condition.. Teach me to be better.