I saw Emir yestrday.
It was different.
He asked me to come round which he usually doesnt do. Its usually me pleading with him to come see me.
It was nice.
I was on facebook b4 Id gone around there and my ex Dan started talkn to me. He had told me that it was ok if I went round there (coz he now lives with emir and dion) and that it wouldntbe weird. He was being really nice to me. It was weird.
I had such a messy break up with this guy im suprised hes stil talking to me.
but anyway I went around there and hung out with the boys. It was cool we just chilled out and watched telly and emir made spaghetti and then they smoked some weed.
Man Dion has calmed down so much! Its weird.
Dion and dan went to karls house to get more weed I think. Emir asked if I wanted to go. I said na coz they would give us heaps of shit and that ill just go home instead. Emir said like na its ok we wont go. And then I said I didnt mind and that we would go.
It was cold outside and I was in a litte dress. Emir asked if I wanted a jumper and I said it was ok. He insisted and ran upstairs to get me one.
When we got to karls most people went outside but I stayed inside and talked to James. Emir txt me saying comeoutside but I was in convo with james and didnt. Then emir came inside to geta drink and on his way out said come outside again. So I did.
It was real boring so Emir and I left. We had to go to the gas station on the way back and emir asked if I wanted anything.
Man Emir is so polite! I cant get over it.
We went back to his and watched telly again. then dion and dan came back. I started to fall asleep so I got up and said goodbye coz I was geting nervous about driving and faling asleep.
Kind of a boring night. But I liked that. There were no dramas and I was just happy to be around them.
There was no passion between Emir and I but Im ok with that. Hes never really seen me as anything more than a mate and thats ok. I think I could see him everyday and not get sick of him. Hes never ever anouyed me. Infact hes never evere done anything wrong in my opion. Other than not feel the same about me. But like u cant help how u feel so im starting to come to terms with that. If he just wants to be mates then mates it is. Id rather that than nothing. I just want him in my life.
Hes moving to Brisbane in a month or so. But im sure ill see him again
