misschris

i'm going CRAZY.

i feel so...i don't know...TRAPPED in this house, in this city, in this STATE...i NEED to get out. thank the lordisa that i'm off to SC in two weeks.

i'm beyond frustrated. i want to lose weight, i try and fail, then get down and give up, then try again, then give up...VICIOUS VICIOUS FOOD AND FAT!!!

i think i'm just tired of work and home and all of le crap that goes with it. i wanna be back at school where i can come and go as i please, and chi is only an hour away. on shweet chi...

plus plus PLUS i nEEEeeeeEEEEd to lose weight if i even expect to get CAST in romeo and juliet, let alone get anything CLOSE to a lead. bleah. i hate this. some days i can see myself as beautiful and voluptuous, and other days i'm just like BLEAH! I'M BIG AND FAT AND OOOOOOOOOOOGLY! which i know i'm not ugly, but it's hard to avoid big and fat popping into my head when i'm fifty pounds overweight.

DAH!