missbunny

"People suck."

"My life is boring."

"The world's going all to hell anyway."

Fuckin a, man! I really need more positive people in my life.

I mean, yeah, things won't always be amazingly exciting. Most people will always be dicks. As a race, humanity really is destroying the world and itself in the process. But why the hell sit and complain about all of this when you do absolutely nothing to help change any of it? Perhaps if you're bored all the time you should take a moment to examine why that is: is the problem that everyone around you is making you bored, or is the problem that you are boring? There's no way anyone is going to somehow fix all the wrongs in the world, but why not at least try to improve your own life?

Life is what you make it. I've had FAR more than my fair share of shitty experiences, but I've also had probably more than I deserve of astonishingly good ones. And you know what? I wouldn't give up ANY of them. You can't really appreciate happiness unless you've experienced sadness, and even suicidal depression is better (to me at least) than apathy. It kinda comes as a package, and you can't always choose what happens to you, but you can choose how to deal with it.

I know I've wasted far too much time sitting around feeling hopeless. But the more I see, and the more people I meet, the more I realize that life is fucking amazing. There's so much complexity that most people don't even begin to comprehend. But at the same time, it's all of those little tiny simple things that make it so good. Looking at the stars on a clear night. The way the water feels so good when you cry in the shower. That little nervous feeling you get in your stomach right before you do something you've never done before. It's all so subtle, and so profoundly beautiful.

I know it's possible to be an intelligent, knowledgeable, socially engaged person and not be full of hate. It's not easy, mind you, but it's certainly possible and it's certainly worth putting the effort in. If you're so convinced that the rest of the world sucks, why are you sitting around waiting for them to make your life good? You have to make your own happiness. Stop and enjoy things, and take a moment to realize exactly how lucky you are to be able to do so. Let yourself be happy, even if it's just something superficial and stupid. Smile. Laugh. Or cry. Whatever, at least you're doing something.

I honestly intend on living my life to the fullest, and I genuinely feel incredibly lucky to have what I have and be who I am. I've certainly had better times in my life than sitting here writing this, and many of them embody feelings that I will never be able to recapture. But I am so thankful to have had them. No one has ever looked back on their lives and wished that they had been more apathetic, or that they had done more sitting around complaining.

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Also my arm is very itchy right now, and I don't know why. I think I have fleas in my room or something. It's kind of unfortunate.