miss_magenta

i'm feeling very blah right now, about everything. i worry so much i make myself sick and i haven't really been eating the past few days. it's not that i am trying not to eat, i just can't and don't feel hungry. i get like this sometimes.

i've been thinking a lot, and i'm not sure if i am going to renew my membership here...
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poetry wednesday

Fallen

Walked with my head in the clouds.
Unaware of the unstable ground under my feet.
Huge gaps in the sidewalk gone unseen.
My scars have a new fresh red color to them.
What happened?
Laying on the ground.
There is blood all around me.
Gravel embedded in my palms and kness from falling so hard.
The blood is washed away by my...
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I'd retrace the steps that led me here but nothing lives behind me. So I lie in this field bathed in the light that loves me. With nothing left to lose. Three tears I've saved for you.
Will you be my, be my beloved?
Will you help, help me to get through?
Will be my, be my destruction?
Will you help, help me to be...
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Monday, Monday, can't trust that day
Monday, Monday, sometimes it just turns out that way
Oh Monday mornin' you gave me no warnin' of what was to be
Oh Monday, Monday, how could you leave and not take me

i didn't get very good sleep last night. something was missing. every night before i go to bed i talk to my hunny. he talks to me until i fall asleep. there have only been a few nights that we haven't done this and on those nights i just can't seem to function right. well, last night was one of those. i'm just glad the...
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new profile pic. i actually really like this one. i submitted a set to the plus size women group, but no nakey pics. just pics of me.

i am recovering from work last night. ugh. so so so busy. INSANE BUSY!

but i am okay now.


have a wonderful rest of the day everyone.

my grandparents celebrated their 68th wedding anniversary yesterday. 68 years. i can't even imagine knowing someone for that long let alone being married to them for that long. craziness.


i'm feeling tired and uneasy. like there is something worng, but i'm not sure what it is. i don't like this feeling very much.


i hope everyone has a good day.



question.... fess up... who sings...
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bumping too short really loud can be great therapy sometimes. i don't know about anyone else, but it works for me. beeeotch!

so it seems this is never-ending. you haven't changed like i thought you did. i'm not sure what you expected me to do, but it obviously wasn't what you wanted. after 5 years of taking me for granted and treating me like shit, a page and a half letter is supposed to make everything ok? you realized you fucked up. good. you did fuck up....
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thank you so much to everyone that wished me a happy birthday yesterday. i am going to comment to everyone individually... but it's taking me a little while.

i had a wonderful day yesterday. my friends and i woke up early and drove to the mountains. we had a picnic next to this little stream of water. it was so beautiful. after we ate we...
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