miss_lady

Ok, it's Project Healthy Monday (wow, I just made that up). miss_lady has been a bit of a bad girl lately, so today it's time to reacquaint myself with the gym.

I have some emotional family stuff going on, and I haven't reacted to it too well. I needed a few days of denial, I guess.

I thought about how people have a responsibility to their family to take care of themselves. There's some members on my mom's side who don't have very good track records. My aunt was telling me how we're all depressed Norwegians w/ a vulnerability for "doing the wrong thing", depending on the choice of poison. We agreed that hereditary factors are not everything. Her only vice is liking sex alot . My mom is sick through no fault of her own, and is extremely angry. She doesn't want to talk to me right now, and was offended when I tried to call and ask why she is talking about suicide. We are having a little upper middle class nightmare at the moment, but everything will hopefully be ok. I guess the last thing I need to be doing is hitting the bottle. I yelled at my dad to stop drinking, too, and no one dares to talk to him that way. Let's just say he wasn't too open to that discussion.

So, here is a bit of my personal shame put out here for everyone. I guess it feels good to write about. Let's just not make too big of a deal about it.

Everyone thinks I have my shit together, so maybe I really should. I thought about going to church to get my head straight, but guess what? I overslept.

I just want to do something today to feel...good. Then maybe I'll know what to do with my own family.

Love, miss_lady