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im a bit ill





i miss jrEWING.






i think i pretty much hate it here now, but it might just be all the free time i have...whatever.
im in a bad mood.

EDIT

okay so i came back because i kindve need to vent.
currently im pissed off that i cant afford to buy my own studio lighting, because i want to be able to take rad photos all the time, and i cant, it really gets to me when i have awesome ideas but cant do anything about them.

and im fucked off that i cant find a fucking job, or at least one i can actually get to every damn day.

and my mum keeps suggesting stupid shit because she doesnt understand how the photography/film industry works.
and its hard not to take your anger out on people who are just trying to help but making stupid suggestions. EVEN WHEN THEY DONT KNOW.

also, the lack of a job means i have NO MONEY ever, which is obviously a massive problem since every god damn little stupid lame thing in the world makes you need money.

the only thing that makes me happy is the thought of seeing jrEWING at the end of the week, and then more so in april when he moves down here to bristol.

on sunday i woke up at half 8 feeling groggy as fuck, so i went back to sleep thinking it was a hangover, woke up at 11 and still felt shit, realised this was either one motherfuck of a hangover or i was actually sick.

turns out i was actually sick, the last few couple of days have been shit.
ive had a horrible earache, which lee will know, drives me fucking crazy, when i had laryngitis over christmas i woke up in the middle of the night with a nasty bastard earache, crying my eyes out.
a big fat headache, a sore throat, cold/hot sweats...the list goes on.
which made this week extra bum because monday was my best friends birthday and i missed out on one hell of a crazy evening with her and pretty much loads of people ive never met. GAYGAYGAYGAY