Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly, I'm not half to man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go I don't know she woldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was...
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Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
Suddenly, I'm not half to man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.
Why she had to go I don't know she woldn't say.
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday.
Yesterday, love was...
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my dad game be a bottle of jack last night...
that was so very nice of him... my mom told me
that I act like a stranger in their house...
my uncle just silently stared at me...
my sister thinks i'm a bum, but she still loves me
I think... My family once saved me from a disaster.
I owe them big time. I just...
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that was so very nice of him... my mom told me
that I act like a stranger in their house...
my uncle just silently stared at me...
my sister thinks i'm a bum, but she still loves me
I think... My family once saved me from a disaster.
I owe them big time. I just...
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comaprincess:
Happy birthday Misha. 
d:
I hope you enjoyed your birthday...
-D
-D
i really want to hurt someone... especially myself.
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mistressmissy:
do you have that always feel like you have to throw up thing going on? i had a case of that...along with that my heart feels like its going to explode thing. it wasnt pretty. i feel for you hun. but hurting yourself doesn't help anything. you could punch pillows or something cheesey like that. or find something to break. destroy something beautiful.
grayblue:
yeah.
i'm getting stronger day by day... not just physically,
but what's most important to me
right now - mentally. Pretty soon i'm gonna be
a stone wall, so take advantage of me now,
while i'm still soft and fuzzy...
but what's most important to me
right now - mentally. Pretty soon i'm gonna be
a stone wall, so take advantage of me now,
while i'm still soft and fuzzy...
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grayblue:
mono's playing in indy in a couple weeks man.
halox29290:
if you do become a stone wall don't forget to leave a window or backdoor. cause sometimes you may want escape yourself.
you said good bye, but never left... so I tried to kiss
you and you turned away. I told you I'm going, you held
my hand. Tried to call you and the phone is dead. This is
a game one of us is going to loose...
you and you turned away. I told you I'm going, you held
my hand. Tried to call you and the phone is dead. This is
a game one of us is going to loose...
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d:
You have a twin in Pittsburgh...I saw him at a march today...
-D
-D
mistressmissy:
i know exactly how that is. to a T. but i think i lost yesterday. and that ends the story.
Do you ever feel like you want to get out of your
skin for a moment? Just take it off like a tracksuit,
undo the zipper on the back and slide out of it...
I'm imagining it would be just like taking off
sweaty clothes after coming home from dancing
all night... That moment when you practically
peal your pants off and stand there naked...
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skin for a moment? Just take it off like a tracksuit,
undo the zipper on the back and slide out of it...
I'm imagining it would be just like taking off
sweaty clothes after coming home from dancing
all night... That moment when you practically
peal your pants off and stand there naked...
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halox29290:
it seems only human to feel removed and want to discard our outerself and escape for awhile. persoanlly if i could abandon my own skin i would. i would opt for a whole new persona.
-i like your new pic it reminds me of an old clothing ad.
-i like your new pic it reminds me of an old clothing ad.
mistressmissy:
gawd thats beautiful.
I might get to paint naked people for an upcoming
fetish ball! i'm psyched! Listening to Berry
White, because I read Missy's journal and it made
me want to... what else?.. feeling pretty good
actually. wow.
fetish ball! i'm psyched! Listening to Berry
White, because I read Missy's journal and it made
me want to... what else?.. feeling pretty good
actually. wow.
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d:
I used to (go-go) dance at a club and they were bringing in someone to paint us...and then 9/11 happened and kinda fucked that up...I was looking forward to being a canvas...you'll have to let me know how it turns out.
Marketing is ok...I just have been trying to stay out of the offfice environment for as long as possible...and I am not sure I can be a standout much longer.
I am fine being alone...I don't need someone all the time...BUT I do get clingy when things are bad in my life...and that is what happened. He was a total loner..and I was too...to an extent..but I needed someone and he never did or when he did, he didn't have it and it morphed him into what he is now...
And I think I am doing that too.
-D
I am glad you are content.
Marketing is ok...I just have been trying to stay out of the offfice environment for as long as possible...and I am not sure I can be a standout much longer.
I am fine being alone...I don't need someone all the time...BUT I do get clingy when things are bad in my life...and that is what happened. He was a total loner..and I was too...to an extent..but I needed someone and he never did or when he did, he didn't have it and it morphed him into what he is now...
And I think I am doing that too.
-D
I am glad you are content.
relethed:
i'm glad that svetlana become tired of skryche's inept advances before he could sully her pride..... 
sometimes I get tired of writing all this introspective bullshit here...
life is actually ok.
we're all young and somewhat intelligent...
so what the fuck?! you know. what the fuck...
life is actually ok.
we're all young and somewhat intelligent...
so what the fuck?! you know. what the fuck...
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mistressmissy:
it can't rain all the time
c'mon get happy
ok im out of song quotes
c'mon get happy
ok im out of song quotes
halox29290:
it seems easier to hide behind vailed words then to admit we have nothing to say.
any of you know how to be alone? can someone
teach me, because i'm killing myself trying...
this past weekend I saw a strange movie called
"of freaks and men". last night "taxi driver",
again... ate a shit load of canned peaches...
apparently I was mean to my friend... she emailed
me today all pissed off. sometimes I say things
that i later regret. but...
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teach me, because i'm killing myself trying...
this past weekend I saw a strange movie called
"of freaks and men". last night "taxi driver",
again... ate a shit load of canned peaches...
apparently I was mean to my friend... she emailed
me today all pissed off. sometimes I say things
that i later regret. but...
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relethed:
how to be alone:
hang out in crowds.
attend parties where you know you will end up sitting in a corner on a beat-up green chair
get a service-industry job, where you will be a product and not a person
do not stand up for yourself when "friends" or foes tromp on you
these are all techniques in which i've engaged. but the impulse to communion always wins out.
how can we possibly be alone? we just can't take it. and how can we be with people? our only options for belonging and togetherness are the companies of people as F-ed up as ourselves.....
i'm sorry your sitch with your ex has been so hard on you.
*hugs*
hang out in crowds.
attend parties where you know you will end up sitting in a corner on a beat-up green chair
get a service-industry job, where you will be a product and not a person
do not stand up for yourself when "friends" or foes tromp on you
these are all techniques in which i've engaged. but the impulse to communion always wins out.
how can we possibly be alone? we just can't take it. and how can we be with people? our only options for belonging and togetherness are the companies of people as F-ed up as ourselves.....
i'm sorry your sitch with your ex has been so hard on you.
*hugs*
gingerlie:
its not boston, but if youd like i can send you an artists application form if you want to email me your address. you have to submit a portfolio and then we look at it and let you know. we dont do anything face to face at the beginning.
last night I watched ziggy startdust and the spiders
from mars, and I got to admit that David Bowie
was damn sexy... i mean way hot.
from mars, and I got to admit that David Bowie
was damn sexy... i mean way hot.
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d:
and you said you had problems hooking up...you big sillyhead...
Forceful is always nice...
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Forceful is always nice...
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mistressmissy:
oh my gawd you actually know who mira is!!! *jumps up and down*
Everyday I thank God in whom I don't believe for having friends.
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commie:
u menya yest' semya v kazani. ya v soyuze tam na dache otdihala... no ya somnevayus shto mi kogda-to vstrechalis'.
ti zdes uzhe dolgo?
ti zdes uzhe dolgo?
halox29290:
ur hardly thoughtless u are a indeed the most thoughtful person i have yet to meet. i am only able to deliver clever or thoughtful comments because i am always so moved by your entries.
I carved my throat with the razor of your love
while your eyes were carefully painting bullet holes on my
chest. And the scars from your nails are yet to fade,
which makes me happy because they are the last thing
that reminds me of you.
while your eyes were carefully painting bullet holes on my
chest. And the scars from your nails are yet to fade,
which makes me happy because they are the last thing
that reminds me of you.
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d:
I don't think I would successful either...
halox29290:
sometimes our deepest wounds are the ones no one sees
and well i dont think ill get a mail order husband. too much money. i should just find some lonely soul at the bar that i can pay 5 dollars to sleep next to me (not with me...im not that desperate) hehe.