as I specified in citruss journal I'm freaking
hung over... Rock night at Touch did this to me...
cd release party for Gospel Revival... which
rocked the boat by the way.
Beer + Jack = fun. Of course I had
to run into the ex, who was completely and
utterly trashed... That just made my evening.
There is also a new handsome devil in the...
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hung over... Rock night at Touch did this to me...
cd release party for Gospel Revival... which
rocked the boat by the way.
Beer + Jack = fun. Of course I had
to run into the ex, who was completely and
utterly trashed... That just made my evening.
There is also a new handsome devil in the...
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Do you ever see yourself as someone else?.. from a side.
Why is one phone call, the sound, the voice can get me so out
of balance? Why do I bear this, and don't cut the evil at
its root, so to speak. Break all contact. I need to find a
reason. A reason to hate... let me see... can't find one.
God, it would...
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Why is one phone call, the sound, the voice can get me so out
of balance? Why do I bear this, and don't cut the evil at
its root, so to speak. Break all contact. I need to find a
reason. A reason to hate... let me see... can't find one.
God, it would...
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user8935778:
up too late. my back hurts. i hate my back hurting. i love sleeping good. i love sleeping good in someones arms. i love nice nights. so to you.. have a nice night.
grapefruit:
ouch
it's quite in the land of sg...
oh well... This morning I woke up two hours earlier
than I usually do... set on the floor and looked out
of the window onto the winter landscape... winter
mornings really depress me, but I didn't know
what else to do. I'm wearing my purple scarf
today... it's comfy and warm. That's all.
oh well... This morning I woke up two hours earlier
than I usually do... set on the floor and looked out
of the window onto the winter landscape... winter
mornings really depress me, but I didn't know
what else to do. I'm wearing my purple scarf
today... it's comfy and warm. That's all.
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slimey:
neon has a purple scarf.
amorette:
thank you.
my legs are so tired my brain is so wired...
for some reason. i've been feeling really horny
for the last two days. sometimes it just comes over
me and I can't make it go away. unfortunately
I don't keep a black book... me wonders... if...
maybe... ah.. screw it... blah blah... I got
stoned last night... in my bathtub... it's been a while
and...
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for some reason. i've been feeling really horny
for the last two days. sometimes it just comes over
me and I can't make it go away. unfortunately
I don't keep a black book... me wonders... if...
maybe... ah.. screw it... blah blah... I got
stoned last night... in my bathtub... it's been a while
and...
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neon:
thanks. 
user8935778:
sometimes i sit on the floor in my shower and cry. i dont know why. but it feels better.
this morning I shoveled the snow away from the
doorsteps of my life... death could come suddenly
and rip you apart from me, but not today.
you will fall in love with a boy who will make you
happy, but not today. my hair will turn gray
and my eyes will lose their brightness, but not
today. I'm going to regret much of what I've...
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doorsteps of my life... death could come suddenly
and rip you apart from me, but not today.
you will fall in love with a boy who will make you
happy, but not today. my hair will turn gray
and my eyes will lose their brightness, but not
today. I'm going to regret much of what I've...
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grapefruit:
today is just another day.
give me grace, i pray.
it'll pass... at least you can walk the steps now.
and: hi
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and: i found what you were saying to be beautiful. poignant, even. thanks for snooping
and baraka is sooo great. i gave it as gifts to several of my friends during the holidays.
[Edited on Jan 28, 2003]
give me grace, i pray.
it'll pass... at least you can walk the steps now.
and: hi
[Edited on Jan 28, 2003]
and: i found what you were saying to be beautiful. poignant, even. thanks for snooping
and baraka is sooo great. i gave it as gifts to several of my friends during the holidays.
[Edited on Jan 28, 2003]
boxterjulep:
today i will wander the streets and not run into anyone i know
spent last night laying on the dusty floor of my
studio with a friend of mine... completely drunk...
talking about love and fate and life... seeing
April again was strange... really really strange.
I couldn't stop staring at her as if I haven't seen
her in years... when she drinks, she changes...
and a couple of times she came dangerously close
to me... I wanted...
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studio with a friend of mine... completely drunk...
talking about love and fate and life... seeing
April again was strange... really really strange.
I couldn't stop staring at her as if I haven't seen
her in years... when she drinks, she changes...
and a couple of times she came dangerously close
to me... I wanted...
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boxterjulep:
go, go, go.
song: black heart procession - square heart from album #1
song: black heart procession - square heart from album #1
relethed:
i believe you're a hero for not backing down from your experiences--for fighting to make sense of your life and staring it straight on. i believe you're a hero for not just going and watching tv and trying to forget.
"let's go down with the ship
let's sink into oblivion
let's go down with the ship
let's sink into, let's sink into the blue"
not very profound, but a very pretty song (vast)
"let's go down with the ship
let's sink into oblivion
let's go down with the ship
let's sink into, let's sink into the blue"
not very profound, but a very pretty song (vast)
i'm so sleepy right now. didn't have coffee this
morning. I noticed that coffee always works better
if I drink it around 5 in the evening. Then I can
stay up all night... weee. it's snowing out, but
since we don't have any windows in the office,
I really won't know when it stops. If i don't leave
this place it will be snowing for...
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morning. I noticed that coffee always works better
if I drink it around 5 in the evening. Then I can
stay up all night... weee. it's snowing out, but
since we don't have any windows in the office,
I really won't know when it stops. If i don't leave
this place it will be snowing for...
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grapefruit:
your eloquence in the most recent words astounds me.
and thank you for that
but that's what i mean, oil and water.
metaphors are the best.
i use them too. when i really *write*...
but i've so far used this mostly just for venting! hA!
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oops, again.
please don't take that to mean i'm a *writer* or any such thing.
[Edited on Jan 23, 2003]
and thank you for that
but that's what i mean, oil and water.
metaphors are the best.
i use them too. when i really *write*...
but i've so far used this mostly just for venting! hA!
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oops, again.
please don't take that to mean i'm a *writer* or any such thing.
[Edited on Jan 23, 2003]
boxterjulep:
i had a thing for butterfly knives. those were cool. lost most of them when i had friends that liked to fight a lot and borrow them then dump the knives when the cops would arrive at the scene.
fuck quietness fuck happiness. I'm not feeling the
love. all I feel is pain. she just called me out of
the blue to talk... I listened... gave advise... and
I listened some more. all through the conversation
I was shivering as if I was laying naked outside on
the snow. why is this thing fucking with my head
so much. Next time I'll tell her...
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love. all I feel is pain. she just called me out of
the blue to talk... I listened... gave advise... and
I listened some more. all through the conversation
I was shivering as if I was laying naked outside on
the snow. why is this thing fucking with my head
so much. Next time I'll tell her...
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grayblue:
mine did that to me last week.
go with the rage. you're human. humans feel rage. it does not make us less than what we are, but rather makes us what we are. feel it for a while, and get yourself through it. it'll be better on the other side.
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go with the rage. you're human. humans feel rage. it does not make us less than what we are, but rather makes us what we are. feel it for a while, and get yourself through it. it'll be better on the other side.
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grapefruit:
sometimes, i guess that's the way it is, right?
what is it they say? "better to have loved.... "
but whatever
what is it they say? "better to have loved.... "
but whatever
"We spend our time living edited versions of our past or uncertain versions of our future."
"Concieve of Nothing while you live and I give you Heaven."
"Pretty girls make graves."
"Quietness without loneliness."
"catching the
sun in its hands the
lilly bows"
"Concieve of Nothing while you live and I give you Heaven."
"Pretty girls make graves."
"Quietness without loneliness."
"catching the
sun in its hands the
lilly bows"
user8935778:
im going to new york. weeeeeeeeeee.
grapefruit:
yay for brilliant quotes.
I popped into Chipotle to get something to eat...
got a burrito, read my magazine... went to wash
my hands to the restroom downstairs. On the way
there I saw this thing come in through the door...
This thing was a pale blonde girl... As pale as
I've ever seen, dressed all in black, big platform
boots... Maybe that's what made her look so pale......
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got a burrito, read my magazine... went to wash
my hands to the restroom downstairs. On the way
there I saw this thing come in through the door...
This thing was a pale blonde girl... As pale as
I've ever seen, dressed all in black, big platform
boots... Maybe that's what made her look so pale......
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grayblue:
don't those missed opportuniteis just make you want to fall to your knees and scream out at the sky? praying that you'll see her again somewhere, somehow?
i know they do that to me...
i know they do that to me...
grapefruit:
i believe in angelic encounters...
but then again, so much of the time, i don't know what to believe in.
but then again, so much of the time, i don't know what to believe in.
9:28 - the last local express,
my only chance to get out of this mess.
A couple of bucks exchange sweaty hands.
It's quite in this gray metal land of moving quicksands. My gloves are all red,
maybe it's blood of all those innocently wasted
moments that I spent with you. The last train number 282 is gonna draw a long line between points of...
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my only chance to get out of this mess.
A couple of bucks exchange sweaty hands.
It's quite in this gray metal land of moving quicksands. My gloves are all red,
maybe it's blood of all those innocently wasted
moments that I spent with you. The last train number 282 is gonna draw a long line between points of...
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csilla:
your a dork too welcome back!
xoxo csilla
welcome back!
xoxo csilla
grapefruit:
you wrote that?
yum.
yum.
the opening of "Page Me" was ok. Some of my
friends were gonna come but in the last minute
things came up. I read too many comics, independent
feminist zines and self-made books... Too much
information... Plus I really couldn't concentrate
on reading, because I would lift my head and look
around every ten seconds to see if I know anyone...
I did know someone......
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friends were gonna come but in the last minute
things came up. I read too many comics, independent
feminist zines and self-made books... Too much
information... Plus I really couldn't concentrate
on reading, because I would lift my head and look
around every ten seconds to see if I know anyone...
I did know someone......
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relethed:
hey, just saying hi. haven't seen you active in a while. hope you're doing well (nothing big to say from here)
(nothing big to say from here)
grayblue:
you still breathin' man?
i like this picture, and i doubt very much that he's as handsome as you.