I have so many dramas, but hopefully it should lessen a little now. The boy had been bothering me a little more than usual, he's been oh-so-dramatic calling me up and telling me how awful he feels, how much he's struggling with his work, and how shit his life is at the moment.
I can't cope with his crap and mine, it's just not fair. He text me the one morning telling me how useless he was, and that he just couldn't work... which I ignored, and then he text me later asking me something ridiculous (but it was a much more upbeat message) which I also ignored. Seems to me that if he can't get my attention one way... he tries another, so I kind of made up my mind that even attempting to be friends was a ridiculous idea, and no good for anyone. I didn't hear from him for a day, and then the next day he text me a few times telling me that he was worried about me because he hadn't heard from me in a while, he called me eventually and I just told him that I couldn't talk to him any more.
It was just a completely awful conversation. He actually had the nerve to think that one day we might get back together! How dare he? After all he's done he's lucky that I tried to be friends with him and put up with so much... I think he tried to fall back on his usual tricks, telling me that I was the only reason he was at uni (which is stupid) and that he's been so depressed that he's considered drugs, he even started to say that he 'might not be around any more' which is basically threatening to hurt himself if I'm not willing to be friends with him.
I'm utterly disgusted by him.
I've only known him for just over a year, and now he can't live without me in his life? As though he has no other friends, and no family?
We argued, he told me that I was being unfair, couldn't (more like wouldn't) believe that I didn't love him any more and pretty much blamed the whole mess on me. He has... in my mind, absolutely no right to feel hurt if I push him away after how much he rejected me, and hurt me, and then clung onto me. He's been really obsessive, and possessive the way he bothers me all the time, and walks me to the station, and badgers me at uni. It's like we've been broken up for months, but not quite. He was still getting support from me, and I was getting nothing back from it.
After that I thought I wouldn't hear from him, but he text me to wish me a happy new year. I just didn't reply, I can't do it any more.
xxx
I can't cope with his crap and mine, it's just not fair. He text me the one morning telling me how useless he was, and that he just couldn't work... which I ignored, and then he text me later asking me something ridiculous (but it was a much more upbeat message) which I also ignored. Seems to me that if he can't get my attention one way... he tries another, so I kind of made up my mind that even attempting to be friends was a ridiculous idea, and no good for anyone. I didn't hear from him for a day, and then the next day he text me a few times telling me that he was worried about me because he hadn't heard from me in a while, he called me eventually and I just told him that I couldn't talk to him any more.
It was just a completely awful conversation. He actually had the nerve to think that one day we might get back together! How dare he? After all he's done he's lucky that I tried to be friends with him and put up with so much... I think he tried to fall back on his usual tricks, telling me that I was the only reason he was at uni (which is stupid) and that he's been so depressed that he's considered drugs, he even started to say that he 'might not be around any more' which is basically threatening to hurt himself if I'm not willing to be friends with him.
I'm utterly disgusted by him.
I've only known him for just over a year, and now he can't live without me in his life? As though he has no other friends, and no family?
We argued, he told me that I was being unfair, couldn't (more like wouldn't) believe that I didn't love him any more and pretty much blamed the whole mess on me. He has... in my mind, absolutely no right to feel hurt if I push him away after how much he rejected me, and hurt me, and then clung onto me. He's been really obsessive, and possessive the way he bothers me all the time, and walks me to the station, and badgers me at uni. It's like we've been broken up for months, but not quite. He was still getting support from me, and I was getting nothing back from it.
After that I thought I wouldn't hear from him, but he text me to wish me a happy new year. I just didn't reply, I can't do it any more.
xxx
maybe you should get away for the weekend?
Amsterdam is nice -a ton of museums to get lost in
or just get away from him,
you deserve a break- take care
It's hard to make decisions like that, but in the end it will work out best for everyone including him.
I think you've done more for him than most people would have done in your situation.
Happy new year, hope things go better this year.
When do you start up on your course again?