misa_blake

Just when I thought it cant possibly get any worse, low and behold the universe take more from me.. I am now I have no car. I really have nothing else to look forward to. I am now house bound .. It is ofical this was the biggest mistake of my life.. I have no fucking support system just consitsnt reminders that my family cant stand who I am. I was told that being single at my age means something is wrong with me. That im failed in New York cause my friends were using me. That my car was a mistake. So basically everything about me is wrong. Ladies and Gents my family. OOO to add insult to injury my grams is still in the hospital. The more they try to help me the worse it gets ... So I selpt for 2 nights ,... now no sleep for me anymore.. I just dont understand how much futhre i can fall ... I really have nothing left ... I have nothing left to lose ... but I am very sure that the universe will find something.. when she wants you to suffer she finds a way.
Time to go ... more isolation from these people here i go.

I am hoping my next blog will be happy thoughts